MY HORIZON

4th june

2009-06-04T13:14:00.003+08:00

i have a stupid idea to just run and hide away for a few days
haha
no reasons though
i guess its just some moments when i prefer to be alone?

*looking 4ward to sun! smiles*

surprises

2009-03-28T19:11:00.003+08:00

I need some marshmallows n gummies
i need some happy events
i need to calm myself down n listen to the sea's beautiful melody...
will they be the ones to treat me the best, giving surprises as when i need?

2009-02-03T18:11:00.003+08:00

CNY 2009!

CNY 2009

2009-02-02T11:44:00.004+08:00

let the cny songs play more often
bcos its joyous melody can infatuate.
i enjoyed the gatherings n atmosphere, seriously.

sumhow, close friends around me are facing some difficulty n stress in their schoolwork,
i cant help them much nor guarantee to give them the correct advice
so all i can say is never give up n believe u can pull through.

JIAYOUS ALL!

e

2009-01-17T18:19:00.004+08:00

smses are impt to me...
i dont understd why people could bring themselves to disregard them

it would only infuriate and disappoint when it concerns a meeting, isnt it?

Do i have such small significance in your heart?
i really want to know

shokudo

2009-01-05T17:08:00.007+08:00

tons of photos n memories r left in the heart, missing in this blog

the reason being my work, n my dates with my family n friends

here's a recollection on what happened on the 30th dec

im looking forward to cny bcos its one of e happiest occasions

n sis is going to cambodia n vietnam to look for some cheap clothes for sale

hope its gonna work out si, anyways...i believe amavic will cum to fruition in the days to cum~

9th dec 2008

2008-12-10T15:58:00.003+08:00

nothing beats having the company of your closest bud,

being in a familiar place of your own,

lazing in the most comfortable bed,

watching the scariest movies (1408, halloween),

munching our fav cheezels....

this is what i will define as genuine relaxation *luv

back from hk!

2008-12-05T12:24:00.002+08:00

im back to sg!

the trip to hk, macau, 珠海，深圳is an enjoyable one

overall, i enjoyed myself =D

here's a few things that's worth mentioning:

1) sunset at 530

2) a car plate which states 'GUCCI BB'

3) carrot cake!!! (o..yummilicious) n the all-time fav 'za liong'

4) a very big dummy handphone-slightly bigger than A3?

5) cute and enormous furry slippers (cantoon-charactered/also A3 sized)

6) THE VENETIAN in macau is very grand and sacred, with a clean and big casino

holi =S

2008-11-14T18:51:00.004+08:00

im going on a holiday at the end of this mth as well as next mth

excitement is all in me lahs

i want a getaway and i hope i can enjoy the trips

its a time to balance myself

balance my emotions....

its time for me to upgrade myself, acc to mum

to take up courses

And ger!i cant wait for our run this sun~

sa: thks for your random smses this afternn

u killed my boredom =D whahaha

recovery

2008-11-12T13:39:00.002+08:00

for now, my 'wish for the day' is to recover fast

i wanna resume my normal activities...

drained

2008-11-10T16:44:00.000+08:00

im emotionally drained...

ultra friendly cust

2008-11-09T17:00:00.004+08:00

a long-time cust of my mum came for a facial today...

she's such a sweetie and i think she's so comfortable to be with

although she spoke abt her children n grandchildren to me in hokkien and i didnt really understd,

i laughed and joked tgt with her

she's a veri amiable elder and is ultra friendly =D

realli wish all customers could be like her, haas.

sand and stone story

2008-11-07T13:21:00.005+08:00

i found this story in my mail and after reading it, i found some answers to my troubles
i hope the people who read it will find theirs too =D
here it goes...

SAND AND STONE

TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKING THROUGH THE DESERT.

DURING SOME POINT OF THE JOURNEY, THEY HAD AN ARGUMENT; AND ONE FRIEND SLAPPED THE OTHER ONE IN THE FACE.

THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPED WAS HURT,

BUT WITHOUT SAYING ANYTHING, WROTE IN THE SAND:

'TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.'

THEY KEPT ON WALKING, UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS,

WHERE THEY DECIDED TO TAKE A BATH.

THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN SLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THE MIRE !

AND STARTED DROWNING, BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM.

AFTER HE RECOVERED FROM THE NEAR DROWNING,

HE WROTE ON A STONE:

'TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE '.

THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPED AND SAVED HIS BEST FRIEND ASKED HIM, 'AFTER I HURT YOU, YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW,

YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?'

THE FRIEND REPLIED 'WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN IN SAND, WHERE WINDS OF FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY. BUT WHEN SOMEONE DOES SOMETHING GOOD FOR US, WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE WHERE NO WIND CAN EVER ERASE IT.

'LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND

AND TO CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE.'

THEY SAY IT TAKES A MINUTE TO FIND A SPECIAL PERSON,

AN HOUR TO APPRECIATE THEM,

A DAY TO LOVE THEM,

BUT THEN AN ENTIRE LIFE TO FORGET THEM.

straw hearts

2008-11-05T12:32:00.003+08:00

ytd when ah mun taught me hw to make straw hearts,
a thought flew past my head.
thats to make some for the people ard me...
wanted to take a pic of those i made but theres no camera ard =(
(will post a pic soon)

this morn, i sneakily placed one of them on top of my mum's hp
its the first successful one that i made =P
i wonder if she noticed it?
hopefully it will brighten her day...=D

inner peace with ws

2008-11-03T17:03:00.004+08:00

i was excited abt the trip, but when i was informed its gonna be cancelled,
i didnt felt ath, im not sad nor disappointed ...
i just wanna keep calm n rest

MY DESIRE FOR TRANQUILITY IS STRONGER NOW... ... ...

i miss....

2008-11-03T14:16:00.002+08:00

thks to all my friends who called to have a chat with me ytd

i really feel bad as i had to delay the conversations, esp ger n xiaoling

*apologies*

tmr's off n im going kbox with my cousins AGAIN

im gonna have k box overdose, acc to xiaoling...haha

its boring but nv-the-less, fun.

contradicting huh?

but i still like kboxing as it helps to relieve stress...

will be calling up the tour agencies for the packages to genting

hopefully its within everyone's budget ba =)

its an unhappy sun

2008-11-02T16:19:00.006+08:00

todae is a packed day, with 5 custs

i wonder if work can help me 4gt my troubles....

it did for some days, but not for most...

PS: HAPPY BDAE WAYNARD!!!

ENJOY =)

i yearn for a short holi, away from hm...

away from s'pore and just have a relaxing time

but i'll miss all my friends

would anyone care to go taiwan?? haha

mood swing

2008-10-26T13:10:00.005+08:00

i asked myself if im happy

i asked myself if im happy with my life nw

i asked myself if im wrong...

i asked myself if im the person im most disappointed in...

i asked myself so many questions....=(

ytd, xiaoling said beauty is all in the mind

i asked myself if happiness is also in the mind...

i want to make myself happy...

but circumstances dont permit me when i dont get support

humans need support and disappointments will arise when we dont recieve it

it hurts when i dont get support....=(

work stress =(

2008-10-23T12:00:00.003+08:00

although im nicely-cladded n made-up everyday for work,
i feel so afraid..y?
bcos im afraid that i cant answer questions bombarded,
or do a gd job in wat i do...
well, i cant possibly know everything
i cant only learn humbly and slowly accumulate that experience, agree?
so to all customers, pls be patient =)

p.s. im looking forward to chatting with ger and also my short trip in dec...
hopefully it can be realised...

food for thoughts

2008-10-19T15:08:00.003+08:00

sumthing happened at my mum's shop today, leaving me with a thought...
did we take our normal movements for granted?
perhaps we shld cherish our body more bcos there must be a number out there who's unable to handle even their daily regimes.

we shld cherish the knowledge bestowed upon us
bcos when we loss the ability to even think properly, it will be too late...

just another food for thought:
do humans expect the same treatment back when we treat others well?
the answer is obvious...
and perhaps thats y humans have troubles.
well, thats an answer to my troubles...

bored...

2008-10-18T12:27:00.003+08:00

been working as usual for the past few days

its so boring =(

i cant wait for tues to come by so as im goin to k box with yin & a movie with ty

just a random statement: time flies

n im growing older and fatter!!!....argh, haha

friendsss

2008-10-13T11:52:00.003+08:00

有希望就有失望

可是人往往都会有期望

不论是对自己或是他人

不是吗？

More often than not, we take people for granted.

is that why others take us for granted too?

conversation with mum

2008-10-12T10:59:00.004+08:00

mum: ger, dun make any appts with ur friends on tues, u hav to attend a seminar with me.

me: but today is alr sun, what if i have appts?

mum: u will just have to cancel...

i thought to myself: but tues is my only offday =(

i need some personal space

journey to work

2008-10-06T13:41:00.006+08:00

im glad i didnt ride on my mum's car to work todae bcos if i did, i wouldnt feel as gd.

As i bus-ed to work, i looked up into the sky n saw the cotton-like clouds in front of the babyblue background....i felt better and calmer

its e first time im looking at the sky at such close proximity n i think i've fallen for it

its part of a horizon, isnt it?

As i train-ed to work, i saw a cute little gal, cladded in a blue dress n had a scarf tied over her little head, covering her ponytail. she's not bubbly, in fact she's a very quiet n obedient child. i like her for her character. perhaps bcos i can relate to her, im drawn to her...she's so me!

she's prob-ly the most obedient gal i've met.

*luv her =)

2008-10-04T12:59:00.008+08:00

It might be time to change myself

not the physical bit, but the psychological one

i need to be less affected by unhappy events and perhaps be contented by the heart-warming things and people ard me.

today i went for work with a heavy feeling...

im sad after the talk

im sad after being straight-forward

im so troubled...

just emo? or am i just too sensitive?

humans will always crave for more, wont they?

desires are never-ending...im one of those who will hope for more

is that considered being greedy?

im one who need friends to be ard

perhaps ger is right, we shouldnt indulge in whinings cos it jus wouldnt help matters

should i take up more courses?

how do i make more friends when i spend so much time on my work?

too helpless, my inferior complex is too strong

off!

2008-10-02T16:21:00.006+08:00

its my offday on tues n wed(due to public hol)!

went to bugis for a bubble tea chat with ger on tues b4 we train-ed to cathay for sushi...

was actuali feeling low on that day but after talking to ger, i felt better...

thks ger, im realli glad i have u (^.^)

as for wed, my dad brought us to amk for e western food...

but since it 'closed', we had chicken rice at the hawker nearby (nice*)

after which, mahjong session at jiam 's hse for e nite

i realised that a lot of pple ard me r troubled, by it bgr, schwork, family or friends.

not onli them. im feeling troubled too.

do we have to face disappointments b4 we can be happy?

i dunno if this applies for everyone.

im back to work

"cheers, xiaoling! =D will call u as often as i can ya?"

moody mood

2008-09-29T22:38:00.002+08:00

im having mood swings at e moment but the thought of having tmr n wed off cheered me up =)

at least i can have a break, a break from work....a break from civilisation, esp from all the entertaining of clients.

im glad im going bugis st to shop tmr, cos thats my relief. 'retail therapy' acc to ger, n i agree! well, dad sort of agreed to bring us to amk for the 'legendarily superb' western food on wed...cant wait to try =D

friendss

2008-09-25T13:52:00.004+08:00

sometimes we just need a few close buddies to stay with us...

to smile with...

to whine with...

to share with....

and of cos to laugh our heads off tgt! haha

but thats not saying that we shld neglect our other friends...

thks ger, for the sushi n popping.

i feel a sense of tranquility whenever im with u =)

k-boxed! hehe

2008-09-24T13:59:00.007+08:00

ps: something's wrong with my tagbox.

sry carebear, for the reply that appeared 4x...

went k-box with small-ling ytd n the amazing thing was its the first time i left before time's up...haha. its the first time i felt tired singing too.....

perhaps fatigue is the reason.

small-ing was tired too, so in the end we went to catch a movie instead.

well, it gave us time to sooth our throats as we were 'out of voice'.

for me, i feel that my voice is so coarse....

anyways, the honey+lemon aloe vera was nice & small-ling said the 'mee sua' is nice too...

shall we go there to eat again? hehes =D

tmr's off

2008-09-15T16:46:00.006+08:00

tmr's off for me n im meeting ger!! =D *cheers

im looking forward to thur's meeting & next week's kbox too =)

these are my motivation....hehe

i miss my nebo colleagues, so tagged care bear today

although i noe i cant meet all of them

but to noe how they r doing will be enough

miss u guys~~

hope to meet up soon =)

ps: thks ty, for the mms-es u sent ytd.

*pretty tian dengs =) *love them

unreasonable client

2008-09-12T14:42:00.002+08:00

my mood was affected by an unreasonable client who called my hp this morning

she just wouldnt listen to explanations n agree to changes

im trying not to be depressed or affected, but i cant...=(

perhaps she's just a stranger, but i just cant help it....

so helpless

more random pics

2008-09-10T22:48:00.010+08:00

took this on 24th aug

(b4 the charity dinner)

deco on the wedding car (they're simply cute!!!)

cute, aren't they?

genting!! (1st sept)

2nd sept...(sleepies* (^.^))

random pics =)

2008-09-10T21:43:00.007+08:00

some random pics that were taken on national day =)
[4d magix, dhl balloon, lilli putt & s'pore flyer]

mum's opening day

2008-09-08T14:52:00.005+08:00

it was my mum's shop opening ytd n i was kept so busy *tireds*
but it was a happi occasion so i wouldnt mind the fatigue...haha
went to work todae n took some pics with the flowers that were sent ytd.
these are the nicer pics...hees

my mum's secret flower garden =) so pretty

i love the pink roses.....realli enchanting (messy hair though)
this is my fav flower arrangement....its special
my mum love it too =D whahaha

4th aug

2008-09-04T14:34:00.004+08:00

im sick of this mundane life
im tired of these confusions
Somebody enlighten me pls......

photos not uploaded =(

2008-09-03T19:11:00.003+08:00

im back in s'pore after a 5N4D trip in KL and genting! realli love the feeling of being back cos i miss my friends, esp ger n small-ling! =D however, i wouldnt deny that i enjoyed myself during the trip. *hahas*

stayed at the newly-weds' newy hse
ate 'suan suan guo' on the eve of the wedding (30th aug)
met mr bear at the wedding dinner (31st aug)
genting (4d magix, snowworld, shopping, outdoor theme park)

shall upload photos on my next entry...
> off for dinner~

27th Aug

2008-08-27T17:15:00.003+08:00

traquility....emancipation....inner peace....
just an sms will be comforting.
disappointments seem to keep haunting me....

hw can i improve unslightly situations?

im looking forward to tmr's k-box....its a kind of medicine that's healing my emotions

although its onli stop-gap, but dont deprive me of that few hours of relief please

surprise visit from yvn =) yippy

2008-08-21T12:43:00.005+08:00

just when im having those 'work blues' today, yvn surprised me with an sms.

she's cuming to drop by my mum's shop to accompany me.

not only that, she bought my fav bubble tea n sushi for me...

no words could describe how touched and happy i was.

*appreciates* luv u gal, u rock!

thks n muacks!

ger, can i put a label 'u r so sweet!' on u?

cos u definitely deserve that n i want the world to know that i have such a wonderful friend~

thks ger! to me, thats even more precious than the most expensive thing on earth.

coffee art

2008-08-14T15:40:00.004+08:00

scanned through my email while working n these coffee art pics made my dae...they're so amazing. (hw did they do it???) *wows*

they cheered mi up n brightened my day.

at least i dun feel so sick now...yeah =)

sick (11/9/08)

2008-08-11T11:03:00.002+08:00

im sick....

fever

running nose

hard of breathing

migraine

stressed out!

2008-08-10T15:07:00.006+08:00

why am i blamed for everything?
when its not you who will be blamed, of cos u wouldnt mind
all you do is complain n instruct....yes, COMPLAIN n INSTRUCT
when would u listen?
like i've said before, if u didnt say, hw would i know what u want?
why do i always have to guess ur feelings?
im realli tired....u noe?
i doubt so.....

working for u gives me great pressure.....
i wanna break free from this n enjoy myself once more!

happi 43th bdae s'pore!

2008-08-10T09:52:00.010+08:00

happi 43th bdae S'pore! =)

well, i had a fun-filled day ytd n i tried a lot of things that i have never done before...

here's the itinerary

littleputt at east coast (lunch at KFC)

DHL balloon (its moving abroad, catch it soon if u haven tried) ~150m

MINTS (museum for toys)

sentosa: underwater world

4D magix

took cable car to harbourfront centre (dinner at han's)

went for two rounds of cablecar to catch the fireworks

took the skyride n luge ride (managed to catch a glimpse of 'songs of the sea')

prawning at pasir ris farmway

(i caught two prawns, not a lot but its the satisfaction that counts...haha)

well, wats amazing is we get to take the rides n visit all these places for freeee!

yup, kudos to my sis's friend, jm who borrowed this special card from her aunt.

yeah!! wat a special national day for mi....*luvs

4th aug

2008-08-04T12:18:00.004+08:00

times speeds by....n leaves silently

i wish for tranquility n peace

i wish i could cycle my problems away at the beach

i wish to run the pressure off

i wish...i wish

im just too stupid to begin with...i didnt ask for it

bt im blamed for them...

music doesnt help....nth can help

u have to tell me wat to do b4 i could help, or else i wouldnt noe....

its becos i cant read ur mind, its too hard

nth seems to make u happy...

im at a loss...

happi bdae guys: abi, huilin n vinc...all of u hav the same bdaes, its so cool. haha =)

yvn's bdae

2008-07-27T22:52:00.008+08:00

yeah! i got e pic from yvn ytd n so decided to post it =)
here's what happened on that dae....

19th july 2008:
- lunch at manhattan (had fish n chips /seafood platter)
[fantastic food: tissues pls, im drooling...]
- movie at amk hub (wedding daze)
- went mcCafe for cakes

ger, hope u enjoyed that day n i realli wish that it is one of the happiest days of ur life ya? (hugs)

all i can say is it was a wonderful day for me n i felt that im fortunate to have u in my life....=)

i will rmb that day 4eva...lets make a promise to celebrate each others' bdae every year until we're old ok? whahahaha

(went ehub with sis n mum and watched hellboy 2, it was an exciting movie for me although we were late for almost half n hour due to e long queue into e carpark =D)

dilemma

2008-07-26T17:52:00.004+08:00

im in a dilemma....i dont know if i should bring up the matter. will he offer his help?

im really interestered in both courses......or mayb i should eliminate one of the course???

help!!!

Ps: i like this phrase ''there is no such thing as perfection in this world

but if we can tolerate those imperfections,

then everything would b e perfect''

Its trueee....

cas's bdae dinner

2008-07-18T23:02:00.009+08:00

15 july 2008: cas's bdae dinner =) [mof at bugis junction]

teriyaki bento...nice~

bdae gal =)

wishing u happiness in e world......

Its been a long time since i met cas, xt n esther...but nth seemed to change at all. that's e gd thing =D haha, they are still as friendly n funny....realli enjoyed their company that night. thkssss....well, we agreed to go k-box n watch a movie e next time we meet....*looking foorrwaarrd to it*

2008-07-14T21:21:00.004+08:00

after a night of thinking, here my enlightenment...
broaden our thinking will make letting go an easier task
being nonchalant will make us a happier person

i feel that letting go n being nonchalant about things can be beneficial at times =)

cas's bdae

2008-07-13T11:16:00.004+08:00

happi bdae cas! gonna hav dinner with u guys on tues, cant wait...hees. wishing u all e happiness in the world n stay cheerful n friendly 4va ya? for e past years, it was u who stood by me when im down...no words could describe how grateful i m....gal, if u see this, thksssssssss (*muacks*)

u would never fail to lighten my moods =) *e sweetest sweet*

mum's shop renovation

2008-07-10T23:32:00.007+08:00

back to blogging =) hmm....hav been helping my mum renovate her shop lately. from painting the walls to laying the carpets, they're draining me of my energies. but all the fatigue was gone when i saw e results. it is a beautiful place =D i love it. e shop is painted in my fav colours, white n pink. its cosy n sweet....

[(zZZ) gone into my dreams~]

4th july

2008-07-04T11:22:00.005+08:00

i wonder how people work.

they can get agitated one minute n 4gt about it e next....

for me, i cant do it.....

Realisation 1

2008-07-02T10:33:00.003+08:00

A simple thinker leads a carefree n happy life...
A sophisticated thinker leads a stressful life...

Forgiving is a tedious task...
To forget is an even more difficult affair...

Will learning to let go n leading a simple life really help?

Where do I stand?
Perhaps its nowhere...

KL & genting trip

2008-06-30T23:15:00.007+08:00

Sudoku tournament 2008!

Floral Prize-giving ceremony

balloons outside e ballroom =)

while waiting for e dinner to start.....

e artistry of towels

28th & 29th june 2008:

went to KL for mum's MLM company dinner...it was a grand dinner with 1500 people & 150 tables altogether. there was dance, prize-giving n performances (one funny host went around asking pple to perform dance n songs with her, haha). e next dae, we set off to genting n we were given abt 4 hours to shop. yeah! =) bought two tops from bum equip & a pair of earrings from GIRLS. *smilez* besides these, i went casino for e first time n played jackpot!! was quite an experience though....haha. it is a very big place....

ps: realised that there's a lot of entertainment in genting (snooker, bowling, archery, rock climbing, movies, snow world)

shopping at bugis st =)

2008-06-26T23:19:00.005+08:00

went shopping with yvn todae at my fav shopping location, BUGIS STREET! haha, i love e dress..its sweet n lovely. also bought a plain white tank top n an over-sized watch [e watch is not meant for use, but to keep as a collection cos its simply too cute (*.*)] thks gal, for e company. i needed this shopping spree to cheer myself up [its an escapade from pressure =)]....hope to go back to bugis street to shop soon...

escape

2008-06-24T11:13:00.009+08:00

[your detractions n denigrations are my disappointments]

Even if u can do everything right, it doesn't mean what the rest do is wrong. (even if u r my elder). so don't look down on others when u cant even play your roles well. u are not given e right. u r a nobody, so don't judge n post your judgments too quickly... they may be delusions

[Disparagements will only make people lose their sense of worth]

sis is back from bangkok! =)

2008-06-23T22:08:00.005+08:00

my sis came back from bangkok ytd! yeah, realli missed her for e past few days when she wasnt ard...(-.-) she bought the following things for mi n i love them. thks sis! (^.^) delighted!! (the prezzies are cool but sweet!)

K-boxed =)

2008-06-20T23:03:00.005+08:00

she's such a sweetie! =)

my 'jie-mei' (*.*)

dodging e camera....hees

20 june 2008:
k-box (11-2) at e!hub (met rosanne n lin feng)
went to jurong east - met xiaoling's relative n bought a ffb ez-link sticker there =) (love it!)
dropped by e library n borrowed 2 nutrition books

I realised that its such a blessing to have a jie mei ard =) for me, 1 of my jie mei is xiaoling!! i love her company! she's like a drug that eludes joy to every1. think e reason y we're so close is bcos we have e same character n we share e same horiscope. will never forget e laughters and jokes, e midnight chats where we shared our woes n of cos, e "secrets" and promises that shall be kept within us. haha. we can always joke freely bcos we both know that we will not bear grudges. isn't that just great? that's what i call a real n true buddy, agreed? no matter if its affinity or faith that brought us tgt, i 'm just glad she's in my life! i have never regretted knowing her....jie3 mei4 wan4 sui4!!! =D

2008-06-19T01:00:00.010+08:00

These poems reflect my feelings when i'm down...think they reflect to every1 too. went emo when i read them, but it is how amazing art can be. they they go....

Memories

by Sudhir Iyer

Was walking down memory lane,

Was walking on the beach,
Throttling the feelings of pain,
Keeping doubts out of reach.

Had a look at the sands of time
The hours when time itself stood still,
Could hear distant bells chime,
And I was walking while I still stood still.

Felt the heat of the sun beating,
Could sense an awe that the past left,
Saw the sheath of life fleeting,
Glimpses of what was there were best.

In Times Of

by Kit McCallum

My soul drifts aimlessly in times of hopelessness.
It searches tirelessly for meaning and truth ...
Yet finds no direction.

My heart bleeds quietly in times of loneliness.
It yearns to find warmth and happiness ...
Yet it somehow eludes me.

My eyes seek out visions in times of want.
They gaze endlessly through the blackness that envelops them ...
Yet they cannot see the light.

My ears listen earnestly in times of silence.
They search for familiar sounds to comfort and console ...
Yet they cannot penetrate the darkness that surrounds me.

My arms reach out frantically in times of despair.
They seek strength and compassion to enfold me ...
Yet they find nothing substantial to enwrap.

My mind cries out desperately in times of solitude.
It poses intense questions that demand answers ...
Yet there are none to be found.
***

My hand reaches out earnestly in these times of confusion.

It dials the number of a familiar and calming voice ...

And gratefully, my lifeline to sanity ... remains intact.

back from airport

2008-06-18T06:40:00.007+08:00

Just came back from e airport...hmm, couldn't get to sleep. think i'm getting moody again. well, i have always been a pessimistic thinker. can anyone share how they make themselves happi all e time? i will b glad to learn from u guys (advice pls, i need them)...gosh, really wonder how they get pass their down moments...

well, i'm one who is bothered by how others look at me n i'm bad at making decisions. perhaps thats why i'm so troubled n depressed all e time...i'm also one who will put away all my happiness just to not disappoint anyone. is that why i'm so unhappy??? i dunno e answers myself....

i guess i need to learn how to stay positive n also be myself, not being what others want me to be. its really stiffling to be unable to do what i like n to blindly follow others' wishes. I want to be myself....i wanna be strong enough to make my own decisions. i will achieve that...

thks to all my friends out there who lent me their hands when i fall, shoulders when i cried & support when i felt depressed n moody. kudos to u guys. u guys rock my world....u know who u are =)

Happi Bdae to Mum & Xiaoling!~

2008-06-17T23:22:00.008+08:00

happi bdae mum~ with lots of hugs n kisses (^.^)

To e most impt & beloved person...

muacks! =)

today is mum's big dae n tmr is xiaoling's special dae! [mum: 50 xiaoling: 21 (they r supposed to be secrets) whahaha] HAPPI DIPPiE bDAE! =p

went m'sia wif mum & highlighted my hair red. it was actuali redder than i tot (haha, as seen from e pics). my hair turned out curlier than what i want too. but on e whole i still like it bcos it is a completely new hairstyle...(especially for me). tsktsk, couldnt recognise myself. (*o*)

went to parkway (kartini Indonesian restaurant) for dinner. that was when we took those pics n where we gave mum a bouquet of two sunflowers n a black watch...[don't e sunflowers look pretty? they're simply alluring] anyway, e food there is yummilicious~

tmr sis n bro lame are going to bangkok. gosh, got to send them off at 5 in e morn...wonder if i can wake up from my piggy slp [zZZZ] oh no, my panda eyes will not improve, they r gonna haunt me.....hahaha. (monster insomnia at work la) well, hope that my sis will buy nice stuff for me but of cos my priority goes to them having fun =) enjoy ur trip n bon voyage sis n bro lame~ gonna miss e both of u. cant wait for sun to come...arghh.

Fathers' Day !

2008-06-16T17:22:00.004+08:00

Thks for everything dad!~

15 june 2008:
Heya, its fathers' day!
went kbox with uncle sam n aunt yvn, adrain n waynard, we were completely engrossed in e songs n had lots of fun! whahaha.....wanna go kbox again =) gave dad a box of his foreva love, ferrero. he loves them. oso gave dad an angbao, although its not a lot, but i noe he appreciates it. hees, can sense that he is very happi when he received e angbao. thats what made me happpiee too. =D Happy fathers' day to all e fathers in e world & of cos to my dad, i love u~

Sentosa trip~

2008-06-16T10:34:00.009+08:00

we took this at siloso beach....=)

Do my cousins look like they are bbq-ing themselves? haha

12 june 2008:

played volleyball n frisbie at siloso beach
took e luge ride
went vivo to eat carl's jr for lunch

My sweet n lovely colleagues celebrated my bade at backend office...=)

2008-06-09T13:54:00.009+08:00

Rosanne n mi =)Millie n me! =)

8th june 2008:

Its e last day of my work n also a day after my bdae! so im having mixed feelings, im sad n happi at e same time. well, i was realli surprised when i saw e cake but e tot of leaving nebo realli saddens mi. they are realli nice colleagues, like rosanne, ryan, edmond, kai siong, emilia, millie, jun wei, lin feng....etc. memories will b etched in my heart. I love them all. muacks, thks for giving mi such a wonderful time at work. many a times, i would 4gt my troubles when they r ard, their jokes simply brushed my problems away. they r no longer my colleagues, but my friends. gonna miss them so much! =) will definitely return to visit, haha

My Actual BAde (^.^)

2008-06-09T13:37:00.021+08:00

My sis n her bf !! it was funny....lols

My all-time fav (cabonara)

7th june 2008:

went ikea for hotdog bun in e morn
kbox (k lunch) from 12-4
bought mum's concert tix at hougang mall
had dinner at cartel =)

My 21st bd celebration =D

2008-06-06T22:16:00.022+08:00

Date: 5th june 08

Place: Aloha Changi Resort (Halton Bungalow D)

Time: 7pm (check-in: 3pm)

this must be e happiest day of my life. i enjoyed myself v v much. Thks to all my friends n relatives. most imptly, my sister n mummy who put in effort to help me organise this chalet! THANKSSSSSSSS!!!! well, was excited n elated when my dad came up to me with a big present on his hand too. Felt v blessed to hav everyone celebrating my 21st wif me...enjoy e photos. hees =) It was a night to remember a lifetime.....

I love my foreva friends bear cake!! =D

My 1st entrieee....

2008-06-01T14:21:00.010+08:00

Hi to everyone !! Welcome to my blog.....haha =)
Really excited as this is my 1st entry(Kudos to serene xiaoling who taught me how to set up this blog)...

[31st may] well, let mi share what have been going on in my life lately...firstly, i got my driving license on thurs! It was a wonderful feeling.

After which, I celebrated with my friend tricia (darl). In actual fact, we were supposed to hav this early bdae celebration for myself. But since i passed my driving test, we celebrated for both events!

Hees...we went to vivocity(secret recipe) for dinner and i tried this 'cheese and ham wrapped with chicken'. It's quite nice but we had to eat v quickly bcos we're late for our movie(sex and the city)! sobz...it was v rushing n i didnt manage to finish my food. yes, i admit its v wasteful....whahah, but no choice.

After movie, we went to the rooftop for ben's n jerry. And the surprise is tricia gave me a forever friends bear and a handmade card as my prezzie!! yeah, was realli elated =D